Bone Tired

My GODDESS, but I'm tired!

Tired of politics
Tired of in-fighting
Tired of capitalism

Tired of Gaje-splaining
White-splaining
Man-splaining

Tired of who's generation sucks more, or who's god has the bigger d1ck

Tired of constantly fighting to just exist
Tired of gas-lighting
Tired of people talking without thinking

Tired of Fascism
Communism
Nationalism

Tired of being told who I am by clueless morons who couldn't find their own ass with a GPS and a flashlight

Tired of gatekeeping
Tired of indignity
Tired of genocide

Tired of children dying
D-y-i-n-g.
DYING!!!

Tired of treading water in an endless sea of blood, while the ones I love get caught in the undertow

Tired of “pick mes”
Tired of fake feminists
Tired of “fuck bois”

Tired of never being good enough
Fast enough
Strong enough

Tired of the world burning to the ground and only having a leaky water pistol

Tired of zero accountability
Tired of unrealistic expectations
Tired of excuses

Tired of “trending”
“Canceling”
“Stitching”

Tired of pretending that my pain doesn't exist just to make you feel more comfortable

Tired of liars
Tired of appropriation
Tired of hypocrites

Tired of intrusive thoughts
Sleepless nights
Self harm

Tired of the constant bickering between mania and depression, the endless looping of every survived assault and trauma digging into my shoulders

Tired of the ringing in my ear
Tired of forgetting to breathe
Tired of flinching at everyone's touch

Tired of my brokenness
Angriness
Sadness

But most of all I'm tired of how you pushed me away, when I needed you the most.